Projects
As per usual I’ve been struggling with ideas and projects lately.
→ One of these such projects has been the so far aptly named for it’s semi-secrecy site: KeepItHush. Ever since Atziluth’s demise (site to put online your BJD-doll profiles) I and many others had been itching for such a site. KIH’s current reincarnation after several failed atetmpts, powered by Elgg, seems to be the solution to our problems.
However there are many things that could be tweaked by someone with actual knowledge of php and such that could make the site so much more than I can manage! They could make it the perfect site. The problem is, no one wants to… And frankly, part of my reluctance to bring it online fully and link it all over the place (namley DoA) has come from the fact that, not only am I not sure whether I could fix the site if it breaks and whether I will have enough room in my server for the possible influx of people; but also that I’m not sure I actually want to ADMIN it.
Lets be realistic, administrating a community site and standing users whining and trolls and trying to keep everyone happy (while juggling server costs, server downtime, etc) is a very difficult task (even with mods) for which I don’t feel I’m cut out for. I can admin small communities alright, and I’ve always been a big believer of the “if you want something done right- do it yourself”, but something like what Atziluth was- if it would ever take off even to half of it- I don’t think I could do it myself. Already I have plenty of troubles trying to administer Legión, and it only has 300 users or so out of which only half are active.
Perhaps if I had more positive feedback I’d feel inclined to bringing it online and open to public a little earlier. :/ Truth is, I’d be super happy to hand that project to whomever wanted it.
→ Moving onto another project, my failure to identify the problem with my RPGing forum is getting on my nerves. Already I lost all of the database thinking THAT was the issue, but it was clearly not. I’ve modified all groups permissions and people are still unable to post anywhere. I’m lost as to what to do and losing will in keeping the forum open. Realistically, only four people were invited to begin with, so what the fuck does it matter if it stays open, right? After all it was only a site for my friends and I to RP now and again- nothing I can’t do over at YahooGroups as I have been doing for years, or something like that.
Maybe I should just go back to free forums hosting, not bother with groups, or even not bother at all with any forum.
→ On that same note, I almost opened another Elgg powered site for the same yaoi RPgin‘ purpose, because I liked the idea of giving users the ability to both put up characters profiles and complete information on their games through pages as well as allowing them to create a “group” for each game; but in the end, I simply deleted it. I wonder if any of you people out there reading this would have enjoyed the idea? I could always restart it…
→ Still on the RPGing subject, I’ve been lazing out terribly in finishing redesigning and modifying the profiles of all my RPing characters and I know it, on my defense, I’m still on the lookout for the perfect script- which I can’t find. I even wanted to modify the Gallery as well, but came to the conclussion that moving the insane amount of huge files it contains and it’s information was a complete pain in the ass.
→ Another project I’ve been putting off has been reviving my writing site- because few of my friends actually contributed to it (one asked what had heppened to it after like, what, four years… ), and because what the hell, I’m on that point in life when I want to get paid for what I do, you know? I’d like to find a nice subscription site… I’d like to leave regular writing aside to write a book- like I always wanted to do. But maybe I’ll look for a script to revive it- not a blog like last time though, perhaps efiction, though I wish it had a possibility for paid subscription asides from free one. Anyone up for using the site with me? I don’t want to feel lonely. 
I’ve also been looking for a nice niche for aspiring authors to join and see if I get encouraged to write. I envy those with book clubs and writing clubs near to where they live, because I have none.
→ And finally, I don’t know what to do regarding two matters: Aprilsmoon’s main page, as it’s clearly not in use, so perhaps I should make something simpler for it… and my own personal site, which I first was going to use for dolls, and then decided not to do altogether, because I already have grumpyangel after all.
Sometimes, I really feel like throwing all my sites to the trash, deleting them, leaving only a few things up- since I don’t do a whole lot with them and I always seem to be changing my mind on what to do. It’s really frustrating, I hope I can make up my mind soon about things.
